Journal

Why Haven’t I Gotten Married?

So why haven’t I gotten married? Let’s start there.

Well, I went on a few like as friend dates in high school. The first person that ever liked to was rejected me flat out and that was hard. That was back in the seventh grade. And I think I’ve assessed over that for several years. But yeah, went to a homecoming. You know, with someone as a friend and then eventually started dating dating outside of high school. When I had moved out.

There was a girl that her name was Jennifer and I had seen her at the Kipona festival that was basically our fireworks in Harrisburg, Pennsylvania, right on the riverfront. I live practically on the riverfront. She was sitting there and I walked up to her and I said something to the effect of I noticed you’re enjoying this music. And before long we were dating and it turned out she lived basically diagonal from where I lived, catercorner just across one of the main streets in downtown Harrisburg.

So that lasted a few months had a lot to do with alcohol. She was an exotic dancer at night, and I think she worked somewhere during the day. I remember we used to watch The Simpsons a lot, so that was great. Then it just got to a point where I didn’t think we were really that compatible. And I broke it off and that was kind of that.

So I remember, you know, meeting some people in New York City. Nothing really ever worked out beyond a night or a week, or a few weeks at best, Nothing really serious. I remember liking somebody a lot in my church in New York City, but again, rejection. So that didn’t work out.

And I remember dating a girl in Africa. And I had decided ultimately in Zambia that that didn’t work out overseas dating is tricky because you never quite know if they like you or if they like the opportunity that you present. So that was that was always a challenge with that.

I think coming to Nashville. I think I you know, I had been hanging out with somebody from New York that now lived in Nashville. But that wasn’t really much anything and went a lot of places somebody else claimed we were practically dating. I don’t I don’t know about that. I did buy them a $300 dress at one point for whatever reason.

But I think as time went on the rejections just, they pile up and I think that when rejections do pile up to a certain degree, you just quit trying or you just, or at least for me, I just think it’s doomed to failure.

Anyway, I’ve gotten used to the way that I live. I definitely like travel and freedom. So I think you know from there, I’ve I’ve seen enough married couples where there’s always complications when you’re traveling when you’re doing things when you want to do something.

I think I’ve seen some of the more negative aspects of marriage. And I just don’t think that I would adapt to that this late in the game. I mean, I’ve seen situations where husbands want to do one thing, wife, the wife wants to do another and whatever the wife wants to do, that’s what they do. And that can really throw some complications during during travel.

And you know, I don’t I guess it does sound selfish, but I just like being able to dash off and go do whatever I want to you know, instantly road trip to Columbus, Ohio for overnight.

I live five and a half hours away. I could jump in the car at 530 Be there at 1130 Eastern time. Do a late checkout because um titanium elite at Marriott literally stay the night into the afternoon checkout for come home be home by like 930 The next day 930 at night and I’ve already had an adventure in Columbus, Ohio and I don’t have to check in with anybody or any thing as far as that’s concerned.

So yeah, I think just rejection after rejection after rejection of things that I seriously wanted to pursue. Combined with the independent lifestyle they have a think at the end of the day. That’s, that’s why I’m not married.

So that answers that question.