Where is Everybody?

For the first time my question the idea of spiritual family was when I was moving into a new home and the requirement before the contractor would start would be that the crawlspace be cleaned out.

And so I asked for help from people at my church. I bought extra gloves and coveralls and masks and you know everything that you would need for like four or five people.

And you know, when the pastor said that they would ask for some help, the day came, nobody showed. Not a single soul.

So I had all this stuff sitting on my porch. Nobody showed, but I had to get the job done.

So I went under corner, corner end with a rake, on my knees sometimes on my belly, and cleaned out the crawlspace for one person to go corner, corner end.

It took awhile, and I generated a lot of trash.

But it would have been so much easier, even with two people or three people. Many hands make for light work.

And I had helped on so many moves, so many emergency calls. Sometimes I gave whole days just to help people in the church.

And then nobody.

Like one person checked on me to make sure I was safe under there, but nobody showed.

And I cried out to God and I said really?

God, is it just me and you?

But you know for me serving others has always come with sacrifice.

And sacrifice I don’t mind making, but when I go to cash in those chips or when I need help, it’s like where’s everybody?

My last move, you know one of my moves from West Greenwood Avenue to Pennock Avenue, I practically did on my own.

People didn’t show up.

And it’s hard.

It’s really hard.

When you think, especially as many times as one gets asked to help sacrificially, and then I was all alone under that crawlspace.

It was just me.

And that was hard.

And that was the beginning of me understanding that that’s not the way spiritual family works.

It really isn’t.

I still have a problem with that notion.

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