All on My Own

So unlike my sister that had a car handed to her college education handed to her funding for figure skating career handed to her private school handed to her, by time I got old enough to want anything like that. I earn it. There weren’t resources because my parents were divorced. So it was a single family, single person income, so I had to get job.

So my first job was a boardwalk fries, a little food court place in the Capital City Mall and can’t fail Pennsylvania and New carbonyl and I forget the exact I believe it’s considered can’t fail. I worked at a lot of places in the mall. I went to Suncoast which was part of the musically and group they sold movies. I worked at the wall. an incarnational wall to wall center video which sold CDs. Toys R Us I worked one day at Arby’s are expensive gifts for a few months.

During the point that my mom was sick, I went to I came home and I went to the mall a lot of work office jobs since and became self employed. But there’s something to be about being at the mall even took a picture of me working at the same mall that grew up and I always wonder if I could tell my seventh grade self that a one day you’re going to you’re going to work for yourself and you can work in the food court in the mall if you want that be something right.

But I found of late you know, I went to the mall. I was sitting Waldenbooks. I just read I would always buy books too, but I was always read it so far in the spinners and Doctor Who books and Star Trek books and all kinds of books, bargain books, that kind of thing. And I found you know Suncoast had movies. I remember going to different locations getting different movies. I couldn’t get my home location or my employee discount.

I found I’ve wanted to recreate that in some way like in a man cave and I don’t have the room in my home. I don’t know what the permitting is on a shed but there’s something inside of me that wants to reconstruct Walden books or at least cross sections of Waldenbooks and Suncoast have a VHS a frame maybe your VHS on the wall and have Star Trek books and Doctor Who books on a shelf and a chair. I don’t know about a cache wrap area. I hadn’t really thought about it. But I do have tubs of this stuff.

I’ve managed to reacquire some VHS I mean it’s require a good number of Doctor Who books and Star Trek books I grew up with their in tubs or in in shelving units with doors on them that kind of thing. They’re just waiting for this to happen. I have toys to collectible toys. I would love to just be able to have a man cave unit and just basically recreate that because I don’t think anything that’s ever coming back.

I don’t think near as much as I can go to a Barnes and Noble and there’s some great memories at Barnes and Noble to when I was working with the homeless in Santa Monica, I would go to Barnes and Noble every day at the promenade at the end of the promenade, and just read the walking dead. I pick up an omnibus and I must have made it through about 70 issues. The equivalent of 70 issues just by reading like one issue sitting down and just reading one or two of them every day that was there. I mean, I did that for you a number of years. So I have my own memories of Barnes and Noble but there’s something inside of me this wanted to recreate Walden books, not for the public. But just for me.

There was something about going to the mall and going to Suncoast or going to want them both it’s a memory is a growing up thing. And it is very possible to recreate it if I could get the permitting and get the money for a shed a climate controlled shed. Climate control is a big thing because a lot of this stuff is collectibles and I would like to sell them off eventually.

But there is this innate desire to basically recreate these mall stores but in little sections. So there would be one section that would represent the science fiction section at Walden books. There being a frame for movie so it would represent the video store like I’ve managed a rental store to and there’ll be section for transformer toys and he man toys and Star Trek toys and I’m actually staring at them as I’m recording here. MeeGo toys I have a lot of those. The 70s superhero doll things.

By Do you want to recreate that right now? It’s in tubs just waiting to happen. It’s not like everything’s still accumulating to a great degree, but it is all here. I could do it. And there’s just something innate. I don’t know if it’s something that I haven’t resolved. I know. For a while I had dreams that I still worked at the mall and missed work for 20 years. I hadn’t checked my schedule. I didn’t know my schedule. My schedule was irregular. You know, it’s kind of like I forgot to study for the test. I have today dream.

I remember specifically going to the mall and just forcing myself to see reality. The mall of and remodeled stores weren’t where they used to be. And I would walk through and just say to myself on the conscious level. Stuff the dreams. This mall doesn’t exist as you knew it anymore. But I think there’s something in me that wants to recreate that in like why there’s Amish sheds but an Amish shed with lighting, insulation, climate control, that kind of thing.

And you know the sheds about $10,000 and it’s probably about $10,000 to to insulate and get the climate control in there like us. I see a split unit, a dehumidifier, lighting and then I just have to get some retail furnishings to to make it work and it would have to be relatively large and I don’t want to know what the permitting is. But wouldn’t be open to the public. It would just be open to me