The Neighborhood of Lonliness

So growing up I had a neighbor named Kevin Wagner. Parents named Flora Wagner. Donald Wagner. So yeah, Flora Wagner, Mrs. Wagner she passed away while we’re still living there, but yeah, Kevin and I would hang out. ride bikes together. We had a neighbor up the street and Tim Laven net comp a collection.

About I remember, you know, like any other neighbor kid dynamic, it was different and I remember constantly going to the house when there was nothing to do asking a seat, Kevin. I was pretty sure he’s in that house and his mom was just saying, No, he wasn’t there. I will look up. I look back on it. And that was rejection. Like that was flat out rejection, and loneliness.

I think for me as a kid growing up in the country, with my sister gone, and all of that. Yeah, there was no one to play with. And when I thought Kevin was home, I went over and I’m probably sure this day that he was home. But I don’t blame him. I don’t blame Mrs. Wagner. It’s just, you know, that was rejection that I think I faced on a regular basis. And that was hard growing up.

When I think about being a white community being a person of color being the adopted person of color blatantly unaware of it. Yeah, I think it’s a I think that affected me to some degree. And again, I don’t blame Kevin. Kevin’s good Christian kid went to Messiah College. I’m sure he’s doing great on his own. Or married with kids by now I’m sure. But back then it was just, again, just this rejection thing.